Tere Bina Besuadi Ratiya...

Sitting in the office this morning, I recollect my college days, when I was sent to Hostel for the first time. I had been homesick for almost and month and my father had warned me that if I do not go back to hostel, he is gonna make me sit at home and I will have to take care of the house hold stuff, doing the dishes, laundry and helping my mom at home.
As I did not have any choice except going back to the hostel. Those were the days I missed my family the most and then I decided that I when i started my own family i would never send my kids to hostel. Well, I got married to the person I fell in love.
I grew both professionally and personally ( mother of two kids). Now we were a complete family Hum Do aur hamere do.
By the time my second kid was 2 years old, I was suffering growth hindrance in the office i was working for past 6 years. I left that job and picked up the offer which i had to leave in next 6 months. For next three months, I was jobless and I landed with only Hyderabad offer with Satyam. Obviously, I joined Satyam where in I was on bench for about 8 months. Since that was turning out bad for my career which was on stake, I started the job hunt again and this time it was an onsite opportunity "BUT" in Bangalore.
Hmm, with a very heavy heart I moved to bangalore and with 15 days of time I flew to make my dream come true. I missed my son's, husband's birthdays... I wished them on phone. I missed the feel of happiness, the fight that me and my husband did to select kids' dresses. I came back from the US and started leaving here in Bangalore and missing all the small small things that my kids might want to share with me. Just a day before my daughter asked me to come back to hyderabad and said that i should not be going to work any more. She wants me to be a house wife so that I can take care of her puppy she is planning to buy since long..............
Yesteray evening I was working with half of my mind present in Hyderabad and was hearing to the song of film Guru - Tere Bina and felt that the lyricist has written the song for me.
Whenever we as a couple fought or any relatives visits, me and my husband used to sleep in different rooms :(. During those days I used fight with my husband saying my night goes sleepless when you are not besides and blah blah......
But now all the nights are going sleepless and thinking this I was crying without noticing that I was being noticed..
In my old hostel days the days were longer and in my new ones the nights are longer - how true is the song Guru's Tere Bina ...